when we get it together love lol I don’t like leaving things undone but we are working on the next chapter…have been for a while; life has just gotten a bit crazy for us
"Damn girl!" Breathing harsh, my hands rested comfortably on her head while she took me in her mouth.
She kept licking and spittin’ on my tip, rubbing her thumb over it continuously before puttin’ her mouth back on me, lettin’ it hit the back of her throat. I’ll admit…
"Please don’t pick up, please don’t pick up." Muttering as I repeatedly tapped my finger nails on the kitchen counter.
I could’ve shitted bricks right now; my heart was doing over a hundred in my chest, sweat was beginning to break out above my eyebrow.
Either way this was going, I…
That came off a little harsh but we haven't heard from this story in a while. What's wrong?
No, actually its a typical question lmao I didn’t read it as harsh so you’re fine. But I understand; its been a while. At one point, my co-writer was throwing out ideas and she was supposed to start writing something soo… I have yet to hear anything and not to mention, we’ve both been pretty busy. Hopefully we can get something together before this month is over.
Ummm…. I can’t even say at this point
Ryan was out of line. Shame on him.
He definitely was smh
I was decked out in my winter apparel; the boots, warm leggings, button down coat but it was classy and right for what was going on. Business meeting after business meeting tired and irritated would probably be the best way to put it. Not to mention the fact that I haven’t eaten since early this…
My ass was beyond tired; I ended up working two shifts because we were short on staff. At first I was fine with it seeing how I missed a few days and I could use the extra cash but like two hours in, I was regretting it. My feet were killing me; that boost of…
I woke up early to a quiet room, aside from Aubrey’s light snoring. I was used to waking up this early anyways, tending to Audrey’s morning routine: making a bottle, changing a diaper; it was something all too familiar now. I eased out of bed, feeling good. Stepping out the bedroom, closing the door behind me, making sure I didn’t make too much noise. I proceeded into the kitchen and turned on the coffee pot.
Opening the fridge only revealed the bare necessities of a celebrity. One who eats out more often than he dines in. I’ll give him credit for at least having milk, orange juice, and eggs. The rest was filled with junk food and alcohol. I rolled my eyes realizing I would have to go to the store since this fool didn’t have any food.
I came back from Whole Foods with some bacon, bread, and potatoes for home fries. Good thing he already had eggs. I poked my head into the bedroom to insure he was still asleep and he was, with his snoring a bit louder than earlier. I hope Audrey didn’t inherit that trait. I giggled to myself.
Back to the kitchen, I cut the potatoes up and put them on the stove; the bacon was on the skillet sizzling, toast in the toaster, and the eggs were almost done. I have to say I out did myself. I set everything up in the dining room table since we didn’t get the chance to use it as much.
Making my way back upstairs, I opened the door to the room, walking in to sit on the edge of the bed. Aubrey was literally in hibernation; the covers were sprawled out all over the bed, his arms were wrapped around the pillow with his head resting on it. He still had those black curls that I so deeply loved. I know those were about to go soon.
"Babe… Wake up" I kissed into his hair, shaking his arm lightly. Nothing. I shook him lightly again, and he got up looking confused. I laughed, "Get up, I made breakfast."
He just lied there, as we exchanged looks; I couldn’t help but brush my hand over his head. I already missed the curls. They were so soft, and yet they were a reminder of my princess. She was gonna have his hair; I just automatically knew. She had everything else of his which I was kind of envious of but I expected that to happen. We’d been talking about it for months. Maybe she’d have my personality.
"What’d you make?" he asked, his voice sounding groggily.
"I can’t tell you, you gotta come down and see." chuckling as he rolled onto his back, stretching his arms out.
"Alright…" He said still sounding groggily but yet sexy voice. "Let me go brush my teeth first." getting up from the bed. I moved out his way so he could go into the bathroom.
Heading for the door, I stopped in my tracks and yelled, “Hurry up before it gets cold.”
I hadn’t cooked for Aubrey since I was pregnant; so I know it’s been a while. And I wanted to show him how much I appreciated him, especially after last night.
Less than ten minutes later, he met me in the kitchen. I had already started picking at my plate and I couldn’t wait on him any longer. It wasn’t much that I wanted but I made sure Aubrey had enough, and if he didn’t, there was more.
The smile on his face and the look in his eyes, let me know he was satisfied and he didn’t even start eating yet. He rubbed his hands together before pulling his chair out.
"Damn, you was throwin’ down wasn’t you?"
I chuckled a little nodding my head while I picked at my plate.
For a few minutes, we didn’t speak. Both of us were into our meals. My baby was literally stuffing his face; it was kind of cute.
"So I was thinking…” I said catching his attention; he picked his head up and chewed what was in his mouth, “Maybe we could go up to Toronto to visit Sandi and let her see her grandbaby.” Suggesting with a smile on my face.
Without hesitation, Aubrey nodded, swallowing what was in his mouth. “Yeah, that’s cool.” He smirked, “When do you wanna go?”
Shrugging my shoulders, “Whenever.” I chuckled, “I just wanna get some family time in with her while you’re still here. Plus I think Audrey misses her.”
Drake laughed, “Aight! I’ll set that up. And we can spend a couple days up there.”
“In the mean time, I think we should go get my princess. I miss her so much right now.” I breathed, moving my plate away from me.
“Yeah I miss my mini me.” Aubrey sighed, picking at his plate.
I gave him blank look; he continued picking at his food then as he was about to bite into his bacon his eyes met mines.
“I can’t stand you.” Flatly I said, “Always rubbing it in.” getting up from the table with my plate.
Aubrey just laughed.
Hopefully she had my personality at least!
Hour and a half later
"It’s good being just the two of us every now and then, but I missed this one right here." chuckling as I looked down at Audrey.
She was lying in bed with us staring at the ceiling, kicking her legs, balling her hands into small fists. Audrey was still not old enough to sit herself up. I found myself looking up at the ceiling with her to see what it was that had her mesmerized by it. Of course I couldn’t but whatever it was, it kept her content. I’d occasionally kiss different parts of her like her soft feet, tiny hands, her cheeks; Des lied there watching us, smiling to herself.
After a while, Audrey was whining down yawning but she was fighting her sleep. Des and me just watched her; then my phone went off.
I got up from the bed and left the room. “Yeah 40?”
"Tonight though? Alright alright, but I’m trying to be home; we just picked Audrey not too long ago so I don’t wanna be too far away from her."
"Iight bring the boys but ya’ll can’t stay too long."
"See you in a few hours." I sighed; Des was not going to be happy.
I walked back into the bedroom. Desi immediately sensed something wrong.
"Who was that babe?"
"It was 40; the boys are coming over so I can get in the studio and work on this song with Weeknd. It’s not gonna be all night though, I promise. I told him I’d rather do it here than go out and come back early in the morning. They should be here in a bit."
She nodded. “Okay. That’s fine; just remember that she’ll be asleep, so keep it down. I know the studio is in the basement but you can still hear it through the vents and stuff. I don’t want her waking up. I’m just getting her on a routine.”
I got on the bed, kissing her; “Thanks for understanding.” making her smile.
Des put Audrey in her baby swing set in front of our bed while I popped in a movie for us to watch. Her and I cuddled up on the bed watching The Avengers. We were just lounging around while we could until the guys came over.
We must have dozed off because I woke up to Audrey’s whines. Desirae was still tangled in the sheets asleep. I draped the blanket over her properly and got up to tend to my number one girl. I turned off her swing set and picked her up. She cuddled up to my chest immediately after laying her head on my shoulder. I hurried out the room and closed the door to let her mom sleep.
In the kitchen I went right to work. With one hand making a bottle and another holding the baby. Is this the multitasking Des was talking about all the time?
Once the bottle was ready I sat down on the couch, propped her up and she took a hold of the bottle with her mouth. She was always really hungry after naps. It’s been over a month since she’s been here and I still can’t seem to fathom this idea that I was a dad. I’d look admire her, wondering what would become of her. What things she would say, how she would look; questions like that, I knew couldn’t be answered now, only time would tell.
After taking a few sips of it she pushed it out her mouth with her tongue. Now, she needed to be burped. I laid her on my chest and lightly patted her back. Like a minute later, I got the response that I needed from her. My girl was good!
My phone was ringing. I got up with Audrey in my arms, walking into the kitchen where I left it.
"Yo." I answered. It was Chubbs telling me they were on their way after they stopped by the liquor store.
"iight, see you in 20." I hung up and made my way up the stairs. I had to wake Desi up to let her know the guys would be here soon.
"Hey babe…" I shook her with one arm as the other clung to the baby.
She turned over and looked at me confusingly. “Yeah?” her voice was slightly raspy.
"The guys are coming over now; Ima go downstairs and set up in the studio; can you take her?” talking about Audrey, “I just fed her not too long ago.”
Des held her arms out for Audrey and laid her out on the bed.
I went downstairs in the basement to turn on the lights and the equipment. Its been a little while since I been down here. Since Audrey was born, I always went out to the studio, and never really utilized my space. Now that I have a family, it’s more of a convenience.
Before long, the doorbell rang; all my boys came walking in with some bags in their hands, which I presumed, were the drinks. We made our way down to the basement.
First things first, we all had to catch up. Sharing stories, laughing and drinking from our cups. This was my usual way of relaxing before I got in the booth but now I just wanted to get back to my family. The thing that they focused on the most was having a new girl to be with. That wasn’t me anymore. Having Desirae and Audrey made me realize this.
40 was sharing his latest run in with his ex. It was getting a little loud but nothing too overboard yet. Of course I know how rowdy we can get.
Des came down to say hi to everyone: Ryan, Chubbs, Niko, 40, CJ, Oliver, Jay, Nate, Hush. The talking subsided.
"Hey guys long time no see." She said walking into the room.
"You looking good Rae for someone who just had a baby." 40 said standing up to give her a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
She giggled, “Thanks.” Looking to me, “Babe, I’m going put Audrey down now. Don’t get too loud, okay?” Her lips met mine and with that she went back upstairs.
Niko was having problems with his girlfriend and was venting about it. Of course all of us were giving our opinions about it.
"She’s always complaining about something now. When we were first together it was nothing like that. We were always having fun. Now we barely have it." Niko confessed.
"Go out and have your own fun." Ryan blurted out. "Fuck that. I wouldn’t stay in a relationship if I wanted to be happy."
"That’s why your single though" I said making everyone laugh. "Niko, what you really should do is remind her how much fun you had before. Take her out."
"Says the whipped one." Ryan sarcastically said.
"But where’s your girl though? Your twenty-five with no one; when are you going to settle down?"
"We all can’t be like you and no one wants to be like you." Ryan spat back.
"I like making my girl happy; I like seeing a smile on her face. That’s not being whipped that’s called being in a relationship. I settled down with the right person!"
"You didn’t have a choice to settle down or not because you got her pregnant! You rushed things and look where you are now."
Everyone in the room was quiet listening to the back and forth of Ryan and I. He was wrong, dead wrong. I knew Des was the one I wanted to be with; her getting pregnant just made me want to be with her more.
"Man, get out my house!" tightly I told him.
I looked at the rest of the boys. “All of you can let yourselves out. Thanks for coming by.” I dapped them up, everyone except Ryan who was already on his way out.
I stayed downstairs fuming after I heard the door close. Not even making an attempt to shut everything down, I went up the stairs and into the bedroom. Desirae lied peacefully with the sheet covering the lower half of her body. I noticed Audrey wasn’t with her so I walked out and across the hall to see her asleep in her crib sucking on her pacifier. Lightly, I brushed my finger over her cheek.
Des had the monitor on so we could see her from our room. I ran my hand over my face as I walked back over to her, slipping into bed behind her, wrapping my arms around her waist.
This was my family and I loved the way things had turned out, no matter what other guys had to say about it.
Please post tonight?
I’m still working on it love. Its just been A LOT going on for us. I just got in from work so I’m gonna get back to editing. Hopefully we’ll have it up by tomorrow, if not then Sunday for sure.
we’re still working on it…. :) wont be long love
I just got through rehearsin’, doin’ sound check; heading back into my room. I wasn’t supposed to be back here for another two hours so I was gonna chill with the crew until then.
My mind kept running; thinkin’ about this tour, my next project, Milo, shit…
soon. sorry, we’ve been busy with school and work. it should be out this week
Christmas Morning 2010
In no way, shape, or form was I ready to indulge in any of today’s festivities. As a matter of fact, I was comfortable spending this entire holiday in my bed. It was easy for me to understand how people could be depressed around this time. My family was going through…